I LOVE Love! Unabashedly, un-apologetically and absolutely. The thing is, here's the thing, I think I forgot it for a minute. When you follow love and you think you've found love, you celebrate, I get lost in it sometimes, and you tell everyone, "He's the one!" AND THEN, that thing happens where you discover, ohh, he wasn't the one.
Where do you go from finding the one to finding they are NOT the one. Logically your heart, soul and mind need a little recovery time. Today is Valentine's Day and until I woke up this morning I wasn't excited about it.
I have had some amazing love connections, some amazing love stories that you think only happen in the movies. I met a guy on an airplane! We sat next to one another on a flight home to Colorado for Christmas. Our relationship started with witty banter and when we landed I think we both knew that something special had happened.
I've waited on a guy that I had an incredible connection with and spent the entire time I was working and he was dining with other people flirting, exchanging glances and then numbers.
I met a guy in a hotel lobby bar, had amazing conversation, spent the night talking and connecting, but never hooking up because he had a girlfriend back home and he actually said the words to me, "Another time, another place and this story would end differently." (or something like that, you get the gist) After our encounter I wrote him a letter, told him thank you and what that night meant to me.
Once, I walked up to a talented photographer, told him I loved his art, and the SECOND our eyes met I KNEW that we had met before. We looked at one another and just knew each other. THAT time I walked away from that conversation thinking, "I am going to Marry that guy". He is currently engaged to someone else. That stings. How can that be? It is.
But, here's the thing, I HAD those experiences and they were magical, exciting, exhilarating and thrilling and conversely, they were devastating and heartbreaking and sad because they ended. Particularly not understanding how I could have absolute knowing that I was going to marry my photographer and not have it work out was mind blowing. I know with all my heart and soul that I will find the love that I am looking for and that I know is out there. I trust it, I believe it and I know it! These experiences allow me to know that. I trust the Universe, I trust fate and I trust destiny.
I am excited for the day that my romantic moment turns into a romantic story into a romantic wedding and continues into a romantic life full of love! I forgot it for awhile, but not for any longer. Love is awesome. Love is amazing and love can and will change the world!
Start today, start with loving yourself. Go within and have a love affair with yourself because then TRUE love will find you!
THIS is the kind of love I'm looking for. . . "The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds." - The Notebook ---
and I'm starting by loving myself that way!
